Tuesday, September 21, 2004

I am Woman. I am Invincible. I am Tired.

For a work at home mom, this seems especially true at times. Let me give you an idea of a 'normal' day..

Monday -
7a - wake up, dress, wake children
7:30 - feed children, feed animals
8a - make sure eldest has shoes/socks and has brushed teeth
8:10a - make sure eldest is at the bus stop and ready for the bus
8:30 - feed self, clean, gather necessaries for youngest to go to school
9:15 - take youngest to school
10:00 - arrive at the Y to begin workout (cycle for 30 minutes)
10:30 - stretch & sculpting class
11:15 - shower and dress
12:00 - arrive home for lunch
12:30 - catch up on any messages missed during morning, make phone calls
1:15 - leave to pick up daughter from school
1:45 - arrive home with daughter
2:00 - clean some portion of the disaster that is my house
3:00 - hopefully daughter is napping, do my 'hour of power' for my business
4:00/4:30 - son arrives home from school, catch up with son about school, help with homework
4:30-6:30 - play time (usually with neighbor children), cook or heat dinner
6:30 - dinner
7:00/7:30 - bath, time to wind down children
8:30 - children bed time
10:00 - my bed time

Pretty mundane, generally. Not every morning is at the YMCA, though. Tuesday mornings I have a spanish class. Thursday mornings I'm volunteering at my son's school. Wednesday and Friday are determined by how much work related things I have to do vs. house related things. If I'm reasonably caught up, I'll head back to the Y. I plan on doing a 1/2 marathon in January, so I need all the help I can get.

But consider this: I'm the only one caring for the animals as a general rule, so all their needs can interfere with regularly scheduled items. I'm the only one caring for the house, so things tend to fall behind. I'm the only one responsible for my business. I'm the PRIMARY one responsible for my children. My husband leaves for work (generally) around 7:30a and doesn't get home until 7:30p or later. The children only see him during the week just before bed. On the weekend, we try to spend time with him, but he's so tired it's rare that we have a family outing. So I work in my parties and such around when I can guarantee someone can care for my kids. Husband or otherwise.

Is it no wonder that I'm tired? Would I change it for anything? Only thing I'd change is my husband's schedule. I love my children, I love my pets, I love my house, I love my job. My key is that I have time to myself on at least Monday mornings where I do something FOR myself. That gives me a chance to recharge. That and getting my children to bed by 8:30 so that I have at least an hour in the evening to simply sit and contemplate my day. (Or plan my schedule for tomorrow.)